Nothing is perfect
Yet, here you are
Could it be
That I am living in a fantasy
Or could it be
That you with me
Is the reality
Of all the world’s hopes and dreams
For something thought never to be seen
For two people joined in unity
Does life feel out-of-whack at the moment? I miss you babe. You went to Vegas for four days. I missed you a lot. You came back and have been very tired and sick for the last four days. It’s very nice to have you back, but I can’t wait until you’re not just back but feeling better, like your usual self. I can’t wait to just be having fun together again. I hope you feel much better really soon. I love you, sweetie. I love you with my whole entire heart! All of it! Life’s been a little weird lately, hey? Nothing overly bad has been happening. Obviously money’s tight, but is that all that has been making things feel weird? Maybe. Maybe worrying about buying groceries and gas and paying rent, not to mention all our other fabulous bills and stuff, maybe that’s just been straining/stressful enough to make everything else feel off. Overly tight budget… and tight living quarters perhaps. Maybe we should be taking more walks — at least once you’re feeling better. Maybe just some good ol’ fashion wide open nature will help the rest of life feel better. I don’t know, but it could be worth a shot. Get out of our tiny place, out of anywhere that so heavily relies on money to do anything or get through anything, and just walk and talk and hang out and stuff. Maybe we should just sell all/most of our stuff, box up the rest in your brother’s garage, and move to the woods… but somewhere that we can get to and from with our car. Bleh. I am really starting to care less and less about where we have to go or what we have to do to get through this portion of life, just as long as I get to be with you wherever it is, whatever we’re doing. I truly love you with every little bit of me. You make me the happiest. I hope you feel better soon.
I am proud of a fairly small assortment of things, but I am profoundly proud of my beautiful lady partner. I’m proud of her for working so hard even when it’s things she doesn’t want to do. And I’m proud of her for going after the things she does want to do. She doesn’t give up. Ever. And that’s amazing. She’s just super.
Well, the truth is I already missed you. I hadn’t really seen you in years. Just barely, for fragments of moments… but even then, you were not completely yourself. Now, you’re gone for good for now. “You’re in a better place,” but it’s still sad. I will never forget you, and I’ll always love you. I’ll do my best to take care of grandpa until he’s ready to be with you again. I miss you. I’ll miss seeing you, even in those fleeting moments. But, the truth is, I already missed you.
My parents always wanted me to end up in a relationship with someone who would allow me to be myself and wouldn’t want to try and change me.
In the end, the woman I found has not only let me be the person my parents knew me to be, but she has let me comfortably and happily be the person I was by myself, when no one else was around. The woman I found loves me more as exactly who I am than I ever realized anyone might or could. The woman I found loves me. The woman I found loves the real me. The woman I found loves the secret real me. And I love her more than I could ever express. I love her more than I have yet been able to properly describe. I love her more then I may EVER be able to explain. I love her. I. Love. Her. She is perfect. She is absolutely perfect. She is, without a doubt, the most perfect any person could ever possibly be to me. I am less of a man without her. I am less of a person without her. On my own I am decent. With her I am better than I could ever be on my own or with anyone else. She truly brings out the absolute best in me. She is my lover munchkin. She is my angel. She is the love of my life. On my own I am strong, I am smart, and I am independent. With her I am powerful, I am wise, and I am indestructible. On my own, I am sufficient. With her I am excellent. She improves me on every level. I could not live without her. I am so grateful so have such a spectacular woman as my wife!
Plus, to top it all off, she’s frickin’ gorgeous (not to brag or anything, but seriously).
“I think I’m falling in love with you.”
I will never forget that line from the movie that is my life. Two-thousand one-hundred and ninety-two days ago, today, the most beautiful woman on the planet informed her loyal comrade (this guy) that she had fallen for him. Since then, there has been no happier person than he (except perhaps she… though it is a topic of constant debate). The two then proceeded to court for 366 days (’twas a leap year), at which point he proposed to she and they were engaged to be married. Then a magical 304 days later, the two were united forever. Though, truth be told, he’d known it would be forever from that very moment, on that bench outside the old folks home. It was clearly forever from that moment, and not a moment later. The two would never be separate again.
Sweet heart, I love you more than I could ever be able to express. Thank you for loving me with such passion and intensity. There is no doubt in my mind that I have absolutely all your love, and I hope you can sense the same from me (because it’s abso-freaking-lutely true).
I adore you!
You are so beautiful!
I admire you!
You are so passionate!
I can’t get enough of you!
You are so loving!
I can barely stand being apart from you!
You are so delightful!
I am so proud of you!
You are so inspiring!
I am so happy because of you!
You are so breathtaking!
I am so in love with you! More and more and more every moment of every day!
You are so flippin’ cute!
I am so grateful to be with you forever!
You are so adorable!
Thank you for being the perfect, wonderful, awe-inspiring woman that you are!
I will love you for all of time!
This morning, I awoke from an unpleasant dream.
This morning, the woman I love more than anything was there to comfort me.
Today, I had a more emotional day than usual.
Today, and every day, I am grateful to get to spend the rest of my life with this woman.